One week ago the entire area was hit by what is now being called a Category 1 Land Hurricane. For me and my family this took out our power for roughly 5 days in 100 degree temps with no running water. Luckily we only had 2 trees knocked down and a large branch that could account as a tree! Also, a hundred other little things were destroyed on our property but nothing major and we were all untouched by the wrath of this storm...well physically untouched. I think the emotional scarring might last awhile but we'll get over it.
It was a way of weeding out the weak...which we were weeded out and escaped to a hotel!
Thursday, September 13, 2012
Airing Out the Laundry
I couldn't help but laugh today as I was outside hanging my laundry up on the line to dry, with the turbines spinning happily in the background along the Highway...I had my A/C on and the pool pump filtering 24/7.
I was so proud of myself for almost drying my clothes outside for an entire month, thinking of how much energy I'd saved and how much lower our electricity bill was going to be. Over the weekend my husband was kind enough to whip me up a batch of some homemade laundry detergent so I've been going to town on the laundry with it to do a comparison. I was feeling so "Green" so "Hands On" and then the weather changed and the bugs grew bigger and bigger...there were Grasshoppers jumping as high as my clothes line...forcing me back to the modern day way of thinking..."screw this" Ha!
I was so proud of myself for almost drying my clothes outside for an entire month, thinking of how much energy I'd saved and how much lower our electricity bill was going to be. Over the weekend my husband was kind enough to whip me up a batch of some homemade laundry detergent so I've been going to town on the laundry with it to do a comparison. I was feeling so "Green" so "Hands On" and then the weather changed and the bugs grew bigger and bigger...there were Grasshoppers jumping as high as my clothes line...forcing me back to the modern day way of thinking..."screw this" Ha!
The Progression of Busy
There was a time in my life, when I was a West Central party girl...living the high life, happy but empty...and then I found Todd...who made me very very happy and then I became Mrs. Myers a.k.a. full time working wife at a TV Station with a husband who had a bar. Life was busy and we were always on the go...at least we thought...until we had our first born. Then I became very, very very happy...was Mrs. Myers aka Full time working classy momma at the TV Station...and then I was really always on the go...well...at least I thought I was...then I had my second child...Then I became very, very, very, very happy and THOUGHT I was going to be the fancy full time working momma of two but something wonderful happened and I was pulled away from my job (thank you God or I would have never left) and then I became a stay at home mom and I thought life would be easier. WRONG...then I became MORE busy then I've ever been in my life! But still...very very very very happy! :)
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
Bye Bye Summer Vacation
I have to say that although a small part of me is happy that order and structure will reside in the Myers household once again...but a huge part of me if very sad that the days will not be filled with the laughter of the girls. Living out in the country there's (obviously) not a neighborhood where kids play and run around and be free like I did. Out here you pretty much have to make "Playdates" and be dropped off and picked up...something I'm not exactly hip to. Perhaps someone needs to write a "Playdate Book for Country Dummies" because I'm still not sure if I have to stay at their house with the kids or if I can just drop them off and leave. I'm not sure what the "Playdate Etiquette" is. OK..moving on...because of this the summer has been filled with Tayla and Nora being each others best friends and playing with each other, laughing with each other, creating with each other, giggling, crying, etc. I'm afraid that all of this will end as soon as school begins and Tayla begins once more hanging out with kids her own age and cuts Nora off. My fear is there because we had this situation happen last year when school began and I remember it being a difficult transition. I'm only hoping that it's better this year. I'll miss my girls and the time we had during the summer...although I have a lot of guilt from things we did not get to do, I also have a lot of pride from things that we DID accomplish.
Their little minds never once stopped imagining or creating. I love this about my children...they can look at an empty box and turn it into a Barbie Castle!
Well..we'll see how the school year rolls!
Saturday, August 11, 2012
The Lonely Sibling
After several, maybe even a decade of fighting a battle with my sister in law, this morning in the shower it finally came to me: SHE WON.
I know my brother to be quiet, to go with the flow and to remain calm. I am the exact opposite...I like to speak my mind, end resolutions, win wars, change the world! My sister in law likes to be in charge, demanding, and to her their is one world, my brother. Which is very loving and nice but along with my brother is a family and to her this family is a distraction which pulls away her much needed attention.
For years I've been playing tug of war with my brother...trying to pull him into town for visits now and then but this is becoming more and more scarce.
We were so close as siblings and he has always been my friend. Without him I am deeply saddened and I've been quite hateful and harsh towards him. (Typical Scorpio reaction to hurt) I miss him terribly but am afraid that the feeling is not mutual.
Over the years, my very distant and cold sister in law has slowly been chipping away at the bridge which connects my brother to me, to my mother, his nieces...all of us. There's nothing left for us to cross over and communicate with each other. There's been no repair to this bridge resulting in permanent closure.
So this morning as I grit my teeth...all of a sudden it him me: SHE HAS WON. I need to just let it all go and accept this instead of being upset and hurt.
I know my brother to be quiet, to go with the flow and to remain calm. I am the exact opposite...I like to speak my mind, end resolutions, win wars, change the world! My sister in law likes to be in charge, demanding, and to her their is one world, my brother. Which is very loving and nice but along with my brother is a family and to her this family is a distraction which pulls away her much needed attention.
For years I've been playing tug of war with my brother...trying to pull him into town for visits now and then but this is becoming more and more scarce.
We were so close as siblings and he has always been my friend. Without him I am deeply saddened and I've been quite hateful and harsh towards him. (Typical Scorpio reaction to hurt) I miss him terribly but am afraid that the feeling is not mutual.
Over the years, my very distant and cold sister in law has slowly been chipping away at the bridge which connects my brother to me, to my mother, his nieces...all of us. There's nothing left for us to cross over and communicate with each other. There's been no repair to this bridge resulting in permanent closure.
So this morning as I grit my teeth...all of a sudden it him me: SHE HAS WON. I need to just let it all go and accept this instead of being upset and hurt.
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
The Cost of Pain
I don't often like to talk about the pain that I'm in but lately it's been overpowering me and I need an escape for it to leave my body...maybe this will help.
For as young as I am, and for the amount of pain that I am in...I'm not looking to becoming old..well older.
A car accident when I was 3 months pregnant, has permanently damaged my left sacroiliac joint, my L5, and my left heel hasn't had any feeling in it for 4 years since the accident.
I thank God that Nora and Tayla were both unharmed!
But now I live with pain everyday of my life. Sometimes the pain is there but not significant and other times it's almost completely unbearable.
I've been through 5 months of physical therapy, 1 month of chiropractic therapy, pain management, prescriptions,cortisone injections, yoga, expensive shoes, I've exercised...all with no relief. Some things made the pain worsen...some made it stay the same but nothing makes it leave my body. It's always there and when I'm weak the pain becomes intense such as this morning. I tell my husband or my kids that my back hurts or my hip hurts but their aren't enough words to describe the intense pain that is felt with every step.
I have to keep moving...I have to keep going and purge out the unbearable pain and focus on my family and things that need to be taken care of around the house.
Sometimes I feel as though I've been beaten to the ground and it takes everything I have to pull myself up, stand tall and continue on with a smile.
I grew up with a mother who was always in pain...I don't want to be that mother to my children. I want to be strong for them...I want to cry when I hear my 3 year old mimic me by saying that her "hip hurts"
Is there any way out? Will it get worse? Am I just losing pain tolerance? Does anyone know? These are questions I ask myself all of the time. Sometimes when I'm talking with someone and I get a stabbing feeling in my joint I "go somewhere" in hopes that they don't notice. Sometimes I can't follow a conversation because of this. Sometimes I get nervous.
It's funny the amount of damage that can be done to ones entire life because of 2 teenagers careless driving.
I still laugh at the settlement that our "top of the line" attorney got for us. $8000 was our "take home $". I'd like to take that money and throw it in every one's face. I often wonder if the driver even knows that I still think about that accident all of the time. That I'm still feeling that accident. I love hearing stories of people who bank off of "accidents" claiming false injuries. If I could, I would love to somehow bottle up 4 years of pain and have them drink the poison.
Enough feeling this way...I have a day to greet...kids to take care of...weeds to pull...laundry to clean...blah blah blah...the day will not stop for my pain. As I've always told my father, "STAND TALL"
For as young as I am, and for the amount of pain that I am in...I'm not looking to becoming old..well older.
A car accident when I was 3 months pregnant, has permanently damaged my left sacroiliac joint, my L5, and my left heel hasn't had any feeling in it for 4 years since the accident.
I thank God that Nora and Tayla were both unharmed!
But now I live with pain everyday of my life. Sometimes the pain is there but not significant and other times it's almost completely unbearable.
I've been through 5 months of physical therapy, 1 month of chiropractic therapy, pain management, prescriptions,cortisone injections, yoga, expensive shoes, I've exercised...all with no relief. Some things made the pain worsen...some made it stay the same but nothing makes it leave my body. It's always there and when I'm weak the pain becomes intense such as this morning. I tell my husband or my kids that my back hurts or my hip hurts but their aren't enough words to describe the intense pain that is felt with every step.
I have to keep moving...I have to keep going and purge out the unbearable pain and focus on my family and things that need to be taken care of around the house.
Sometimes I feel as though I've been beaten to the ground and it takes everything I have to pull myself up, stand tall and continue on with a smile.
I grew up with a mother who was always in pain...I don't want to be that mother to my children. I want to be strong for them...I want to cry when I hear my 3 year old mimic me by saying that her "hip hurts"
Is there any way out? Will it get worse? Am I just losing pain tolerance? Does anyone know? These are questions I ask myself all of the time. Sometimes when I'm talking with someone and I get a stabbing feeling in my joint I "go somewhere" in hopes that they don't notice. Sometimes I can't follow a conversation because of this. Sometimes I get nervous.
It's funny the amount of damage that can be done to ones entire life because of 2 teenagers careless driving.
I still laugh at the settlement that our "top of the line" attorney got for us. $8000 was our "take home $". I'd like to take that money and throw it in every one's face. I often wonder if the driver even knows that I still think about that accident all of the time. That I'm still feeling that accident. I love hearing stories of people who bank off of "accidents" claiming false injuries. If I could, I would love to somehow bottle up 4 years of pain and have them drink the poison.
Enough feeling this way...I have a day to greet...kids to take care of...weeds to pull...laundry to clean...blah blah blah...the day will not stop for my pain. As I've always told my father, "STAND TALL"
Friday, May 4, 2012
Busy Busy Busy
The girls are spent and waiting for summer arrival so they can swim and play non-stop...stay up late and sleep in. For me, this means 3 months of a non-structured, chaotic whirl wind of a summer. I'm a rather structured, routine person so when the summer comes things get a little crazy for me. I like to know where the day is headed so I'm aware of a beginning and end point. Haha...I know...it's anal but it's all I got. So, because my kids are kids I throw out routine and structure during the summer and we play everything by ear which usually results in me losing my mind more so than I already have. I do have to admit that I am looking forward to the sleeping in part mainly because I've been staying up until the wee hours of the morning catering to my new addiction: Law & Order: Criminal Intent! (I'm a little behind the times with my TV shows)
This summer should be interesting with a new addition to the Myers family: Sophie! A 4 month old German Shepherd we rescued from a shelter. I know nothing about dogs but I must be doing something right because she seems to be very loyal to me and listens to what I tell her to do more than anyone. Maybe it's fear because she hears me scream at the kids all of the time. She's a very smart little pup and we hope to train her well.
I've been so busy with everything that I haven't blogged for quite sometime. A lot has happened since my last post. We cleared everything out of my Grandma's house with a semi-productive garage sale last weekend. The only thing left I have to get is her antique Mahogany Hutch which is BEAUTIFUL! I'm looking forward to stocking it with my precious items and I can't wait to decorate the top with 2 beautiful vintage glass cubed buffet lamps I got for $1 at a garage sale! I would have loved to have had the beautiful Duncan and Phyfe Dining Room table and chairs to go along with it but who has dining rooms anymore?
I've also been busy gardening, gardening and more gardening. Transplanting perennials here and there and everywhere!
I also transplanted a mystery tree from our woods to the front and some wild raspberries!
I'll have pictures to post of everything at a later time!
For now...I'm ready to head back outside and begin my morning with some weeding before it rains.
This summer should be interesting with a new addition to the Myers family: Sophie! A 4 month old German Shepherd we rescued from a shelter. I know nothing about dogs but I must be doing something right because she seems to be very loyal to me and listens to what I tell her to do more than anyone. Maybe it's fear because she hears me scream at the kids all of the time. She's a very smart little pup and we hope to train her well.
I've been so busy with everything that I haven't blogged for quite sometime. A lot has happened since my last post. We cleared everything out of my Grandma's house with a semi-productive garage sale last weekend. The only thing left I have to get is her antique Mahogany Hutch which is BEAUTIFUL! I'm looking forward to stocking it with my precious items and I can't wait to decorate the top with 2 beautiful vintage glass cubed buffet lamps I got for $1 at a garage sale! I would have loved to have had the beautiful Duncan and Phyfe Dining Room table and chairs to go along with it but who has dining rooms anymore?
I've also been busy gardening, gardening and more gardening. Transplanting perennials here and there and everywhere!
I also transplanted a mystery tree from our woods to the front and some wild raspberries!
I'll have pictures to post of everything at a later time!
For now...I'm ready to head back outside and begin my morning with some weeding before it rains.
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